Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: babysitter, George Strait, survivor of childhood sexual abuse, Taylor Swift, TiVo
Among all of my mishegas is this song “Run” by George Strait. It’s such a pretty song, and when it first came out I listened to it a lot. However, it seemed like every time I listened to it, I lost someone. Now, it usually turned out that each person I lost wasn’t really so good for me anyway, but still I got to be afraid of the song. When the huz and I started dating, I got real scared of the song and forbade the song in my near proximity.
As you all know, I went away with the huz this last week. I Tivo’d the country music special about George Strait. Sure enough, Taylor Swift sang that song, my beloved but fearful song. She did a lovely job, and I love the song just as much now as I did then.
I am of course terrified that I am going to lose someone now. I did the unthinkable, listen to a song that has scary things happen when I hear it. And this is why you shouldn’t fuck kids, because I believe that a song has scary properties attached to it just by virtue of me listening to it. I suppose it’s ridiculous. I even feel ridiculous typing it out. But the more I think about it, why is it any more ridiculous than anything else? It’s ridiculous for a babysitter to come into our home and molest two little children, so why is being afraid of a song any more ridiculous than that? Now that I know for sure that such things happen to kids, I am afraid of songs.
