Filed under: fear, survivor | Tags: hyper-startle response, hypervigilance, PTSD, survivor of child sexual abuse, survivor of incest
Yesterday I came home from work and I was already hypervigilant because I knew I was coming home to an empty house. My ex wasn’t home yet, and my son was still at school, so I was scared. But I tried to remain calm.
I walked in the house and closed the door. I heard a noise behind me. I let out a blood-curdling scream. He’s here, I thought. He’s here and he’s going to hurt me.
It turns out that the noise was the sound of my dog yawning.
After I realized the source of the sound and calmed down, I looked out the window. Did the neighbors just hear me scream like that? They already think we are nuts, this will just confirm it for them, I thought.
This is why you shouldn’t fuck kids. We acquire post-traumatic stress disorder as a means of surviving such an aberrant set of actions in our childhood. But it makes us scream when our dogs yawn.
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